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Aug 07, 2022 - 1:56PM

I'm always so perplexed when I remember there's mundane stuff happing at all times. Like someone found out they were pregnant today and it's the happiest day of their life. Someone died on a hospital bed all alone. Someone is reading a book. Like that's just baffling to me. Sometimes I want to be omniscient just because of this. I want to see the mundane.

Aug 06, 2022 - 1:23PM

she knew what she was doing when she made this

Aug 06, 2022 - 1:11PM

my uni notes that i will never look back on not being in chronological order: this bothers me i'll fix it

my apartment covered in clothes that i could very easily put back in the closet: this does not bother me

Aug 04, 2022 - 7:31PM

I will resurrect Lagrange and kill him again.

Aug 02, 2022 - 6:47PM

I wish websites were like books. Forever. And you would have to print out another edition to make changes. But the previous one would still exist. Idk why but that's just a cool concept in my head

Aug 01, 2022 - 9:19PM

Going over my class notes trying to summarize them and corroborating with the book and I'm amazed at the power of synthesis I had those mornings where I could barely stay awake

Aug 01, 2022 - 7:00PM

Got decaf for the first time ever. I don't hate it. What I'm not gonna hate is the lack of cortisol in my system from drinking caffeine.

Jul 31, 2022 - 2:21PM

My keyboard sounds so loud when I don't have my headphones on like it drowns out any other sound around me. wtf

Jul 31, 2022 - 2:08PM

Took a very long hot shower, now LDR is playing softly on the speakers and the birds are chirping outside. Life is good sometimes.

Jul 29, 2022 - 11:07PM

Came back home after being gone for a lil and I always come back inspired, but this time it's different, I left inspired, and came back assured of my goals, and with a bit more of a foundation to what I want, and where I want to be.

Guessing that the hard part will be figuring out how to get there, and reminding myself that paths are not necessarily linear, and sometimes hard to navigate. But that's fine. I trust myself to be able to sort through.

I have some ideas of what I want to achieve in the short-term (~6 months), which I believe will get me closer to my med-term goals. Some of those ideas include:

Jul 19, 2022 - 2:25PM

I want to make a game. I actually want to tell a story, and make pretty artwork for it. But I also want to interact with my story. So I guess I want to make a game.

Jul 19, 2022 - 1:17PM

I have so many tabs open I no longer know if what I'm looking for is even there

Jul 18, 2022 - 12:27PM

Been working on a silly remake of my website but it feels like my brain just dries up as soon as I open VSCode.

Jul 17, 2022 - 6:27PM

Why do I feel bad about not doing anything all day when I'm on HOLIDAY and supposed to do nothing all day.

Jul 17, 2022 - 4:52PM

Yassifying my laptop by making everything pink so the other STEM students fear me.

Jul 17, 2022 - 2:20AM

Lots of sirens going off and I got my window open to get the smell of burnt onions out of my apartment and they're SO loud it's making me nervous

Jul 13, 2022 - 3:51PM

We should bring back visualizers to music players. Incorporate them into physical ones as well. Add a projector and party lights to vinyl players. I don't care.

Jul 11, 2022 - 11:12PM

I love how every couple of days or weeks I remember this exists and just post the most insane shit ever and then disappear for another days or weeks.

Jul 11, 2022 - 11:08PM

I like minimalism not for it's lack of, but because it's easily done by people with no sense of what looks good. Some still manage to butcher the job. But it's still better on the eyes than a brutalist design that feels worse than getting stabbed with needles in your eyes. Not that I know what that feels like.

I also find designs that try to imitate something it clearly isn't, hideous. Unless it's a poster or some sort of graphic, then I guess it's okay. But books that try to look medieval with a print on a glossy piece of paper are horrible. Yeah.

Jul 11, 2022 - 7:49PM

Father listens to Lana del Rey and my uncle listens to Miley Cyrus and Lady Gaga (only the more rock-y songs). I'm being gentrified by my own family. Literally told my uncle Miley used to do Hannah Montana and he was shocked. Bring back manly men!

Jul 02, 2022 - 5:40PM

I'm so understimulated I need to be SHOT.

Jun 23, 2022 - 11:34PM

Was wondering why my coffee tasted like warm water instead of coffee. It's because I forgot to add the coffee.

Jun 21, 2022 - 8:08PM

Sometimes i have to take a deep breath and remind myself to not kill people (with words)

Jun 21, 2022 - 7:29PM

Waiting for a call. Phone in hand. I feel a vibration in my pocket. I reach for my phone. Wasn't there. Start looking for my phone. Phone still in hand. I'm looking it at it. Watching an insta story. I'm still wondering where my phone is. I think I'm going insane.

Jun 21, 2022 - 4:11PM

We should bring back book covers with no drawings or photos on them. Or at least let them not cover the entire cover. Let the picture or artwork be as if it were framed on a wall.

Jun 21, 2022 - 4:03PM

I know I've already said this here but Lana del Rey is such a great artist

Jun 21, 2022 - 4:02PM

Haven't said anything in here for a while. Kinda forgot to have thoughts.

May 29, 2022 - 8:12PM

salt smells really nice

May 29, 2022 - 7:27PM

forever shocked by the fact people can study with lo-fi / chill music. wdym you don't need fast loud noises to focus?

May 23, 2022 - 5:35PM

If you don't like Lana del Rey's music you're the problem.

May 23, 2022 - 7:44AM

Don't really feel like going to class right now. But I will. Just to talk to my professor for 20 minutes during the coffee break.

May 22, 2022 - 12:41PM

driving through the fields seeing, road under construction, wind farms on the sides, favourite thing ever

May 22, 2022 - 10:06AM

my one fear is forever relating to 'this is me trying' by dr swift

May 18, 2022 - 9:38PM

Lana del Rey might just be the realest artist ever

May 14, 2022 - 11:07PM

Sometimes I wish I could have conscious/lucid dreams as I did a few years back, I certainly miss the ultimate VR experience. I certainly don't miss the conscious nightmares that came with them, knowing it wasn't real but not being able to control any of the horrible things happening. Especially since I had to try really hard to wake up

May 13, 2022 - 12:51AM

Like I obviously have a voice inside my head as if I were speaking but inside my head. What I mean is that behind that voice (literally behind, top and back of the ears, I feel the voice from my nose to my forehead, but it can be moved around) is the Cloud. Between them are the "secondary voices" I can use to talk at the same time. Most times they're just playing random music, or random tiktok sounds. I cannot control that mostly. The Cloud does not necessarily communicate in words or pictures, but in a mesh of concepts. Concepts as in when someone asks you what a word means and you know what it means, you just cannot describe it, because it lives as a concept in your brain. I don't know or care if this makes any sense. If a psychiatrist or neurosurgeon would like to perform a biopsy of my brain I'll let you. In exchange for a lobotomy. Requirement can be waived depending on if the law allows for it to be performed.

May 13, 2022 - 12:37AM

Sometimes I feel like I could write 57 pages about something. Until I actually go do it. And I can't even write 6 words. Why must I think in clouds and not in just a stream of words like normal people.

May 11, 2022 - 4:15PM

Love playing dress-up. Look good for no good reason. Serotonin boost.

May 09, 2022 - 10:06PM

Professor told me I always have pretty nails and that I inspired her to go get hers done. She's giving me academic validation by passing me on my exams but she's also giving me validation by an academic. I like it.

May 09, 2022 - 12:29PM

Sometimes i think.

May 08, 2022 - 1:50PM

"they say she was seen on occasion pacing the rocks staring out at the midnight sea" is so me. I'm her. She's me. We are the same person.

May 08, 2022 - 12:13AM

love coming back to my hometown. it's so quiet. my mum just complained because the neighbours are talking too loud and it's past midnight. apart from that, only phones, nature and the occasional car in the distance.

May 06, 2022 - 1:11AM

This Love (Taylor's Version) song of a lifetime

May 05, 2022 - 6:41PM

me when the learning environment is optimal for my brain: woah i'm learning

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